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Sr Camilla
Personal stories · Religious Sisters
My vocation story
On the 13th October 1987, I took my first vows in a religious community in Italy praying that, one day, we would establish a presence in the UK. Little did I know, this dream would come true but in a way I would never have imagined at the time. So much has happened in these intervening years that I feel as though I have already lived 10 lives! God only knows that it will take eternity to thank him for his mercy, compassion and faithfulness to me.
My passion for supporting people on their vocational journey to the fullness of life and love has grown due to the many challenges I have encountered throughout my own journey. In actual fact, these difficulties were necessary for me to discover that every vocation (whatever it is) is pure grace. The Lord does it all and all we have to do is create the space for the tsunami of his love to fill our hearts and lead us wherever it inspires us. ‘Love and do what you will’ said St Augustine.
Growing up in a loving Czechoslovakian/German family where prayer and searching for God’s will was embedded in us, made it natural for me to try and say ‘yes’ to his dream for me. Playing tennis, painting with oils, gardening and travelling helped me stay grounded. Since my first communion, I had wanted to give my heart to Jesus. A defining retreat during my university years was centered on the mystery of the Annunciation. During this retreat, my sense of being invited by the Lord to become a religious sister was confirmed, despite my desire ( at that time) to be ‘left alone’ by God so that I could get married. Following a period of discernment I joined a Marian Institute in Italy. I spent many happy years there, fully immersed in parish, shrine and youth work. I left this order in 1997 just before my final vows, painfully realising that the desire for deeper intimacy was in fact a call to a more contemplative style of life.
Returning to England I took up palliative care nursing again, accompanying many people as they stepped from this life into the next, often with the regret of unwise choices made during their lifetime. It was during this time that I also met a lot of young women and men searching for their path in life. I had already helped run Samuel Groups (first established by Cardinal Martini during my years in Milan) and my desire to support these young people, as they journeyed in their decision-making, led to the start of the Vocations Discernment Group in London. Jesus himself ‘grew in wisdom and in grace’ and helping others make good decisions as early as possible in life has become a passion for me. I myself looked at more contemplative options: it was during a graced stay at Ware Carmel that I instantly knew that God wanted me to return to London and set up Cornerstone, a discernment community, and see what would emerge from that.
Ideas of a different way of living religious life continued to come to my mind. In February 2001, these ideas began to take shape as well as the sense that Our Lady of Walsingham wanted a community dedicated specifically to her. It seemed that she wanted vowed sisters, brothers and priests as well as married and single people to work in her name and help many discover the joy of saying yes to God’s love and his will. The rest is history as one can say. People often ask, ‘Why start a new community?’. I reply by saying that I can only be faithful to what God has inspired and confirmed in so many ways, otherwise I would not be true to what is deepest in me. The results do not matter, as God asks only for faithfulness and not for success. Everything is in his hands and how things unfold is up to him. Up to now, he has provided us with everything we have needed and I do not doubt that he will continue to do so.
Fifteen years ago another high point arrived when I started part time work at the National Catholic Shrine of Our Lady at Walsingham. This gift of God was so unexpected and yet seemed so right considering that the inspiration for the name of the community was received in the Slipper Chapel. Since then the community moved to Walsingham, where we ran Dowry House Retreat for the shrine until April 2023. We also acquired our first convent (Mother House and Novitiate) called House of the Divine Will in Dereham, about 30 minutes drive from Walsingham, and we now have our own mission house in Walsingham itself.
It is at Walsingham that we are invited to remember the joy of Mary at the Annunciation, as she accepted her call to be the Mother of God. Saying yes in the joyful moments of one's life is one thing, but saying yes in the sorrowful and difficult moments is quite another. Mary, who has accompanied me along this whole journey, has taught me slowly but surely that the painful parts of life are part and parcel of the purifying process that will enable me eventually to love as God loves. Only God can satisfy the desires of my heart. This journey into the depths of my being is the most difficult and yet the most exciting and exhilarating journey I have ever made. It far outweighs the travels to the many foreign lands I was able to make before entering the convent the first time round.
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